Noticing Space
Acharn Sumedho
In
meditation, we can be alert and attentive; it’s like listening – being with the
moment as it is – just listening. What we are doing is bringing into awareness
the way it is, noticing space and form – the Unconditioned and the Conditioned.
For
example, we can notice the space in a room. Most people probably wouldn’t
notice the space; they would notice the things in it – the people, the walls,
the floor, the furniture. But in order to notice the space, what do you do? You
withdraw your attention from the things, and bring your attention to the space.
This does not mean getting rid of the things, or denying the things their right
to be there. It merely means not concentrating on them, not going from one
thing to another.
The space
in a room is peaceful. The objects in the room can excite, repel, or attract,
but the space has no quality that excites, repels, or attracts. But even though
the space does not attract our attention, we can be fully aware of it, and we
become aware of it when we are no longer absorbing into the objects in the
room. When we reflect on the space in the room, we
feel a sense of calm, because all space is the same; the space around you and
the space around me is no different. It is not mine; I can’t say, “This space
belongs to me” or “This space belongs to you.”
Space is
always present. It makes it possible for us to be together, contained within a
room, in a space that is limited by walls; but it is also outside the room.
Space contains the whole building, the whole world. So space is not bound by
objects in any way; it is not bound by anything. If we wish, we can view space
as limited in a room, but really space is unlimited.
Spacious Mind
Noticing
the space around people and things provides a different way of looking at them,
and developing this spacious view is a way of opening oneself. When one has a
spacious mind, there is room for everything. When one has a narrow mind, there
is room for only a few things. Everything ahs to be manipulated and controlled,
so that you have only what you think is right – what you want there – and
everything else has to be pushed out.
Life with a
narrow view is suppressed and constricted; it is always struggle. There is
always tension involved in it, because it takes an enormous amount of energy to
keep everything in order all the time. If you have a narrow view of life, the
disorder of life has to be ordered for you; so you are always busy,
manipulating the mind and rejecting things or holding on to them. This is the dukkha of ignorance, which comes from not understanding the
way it is.
The
spacious mind has room for everything. It is like the space in a room , which is never harmed by what goes in and out of it.
In fact, we say “the space is in this room,” but actually the room is in the
space – the whole building is in the space. Looking at it one way, the wall limit the space in the room. But looking at it another
way, we see that space is limitless.
Space is
something that you tend not to notice, because it doesn’t grasp your attention.
It is not like a beautiful flower or a terrible disaster; it is something
really beautiful or something really horrible that pulls your attention right
to it. You can be mesmerized in an instant by something exciting, fascinating,
horrible, or terrible; but you can’t do that with space, can you? To notice
space you have to calm down; you have to contemplate it. This is because
spaciousness has no extreme qualities; it is just spacious.
Flowers can
be extremely beautiful, with bright reds and oranges and purples, with
beautiful shapes that are dazzling to our minds. Something else, like garbage,
can be ugly and
disgusting. It’s not very noticeable and yet, without space, there would be
nothing else. We wouldn’t be able to see anything else.
If you
filled a room with things so that it became solid, or filled it up with cement,
there would be no space left in the room. Then, of course, you couldn’t have
beautiful flowers or anything else; it would just be a big block. It would be
useless, wouldn’t it? So we need both; we need to appreciate form
and space. They are the perfect couple, the true marriage, the perfect harmony
– space and form. We can contemplate space and form and, from the broad
perspective that develops, comes wisdom.
The Sound of Silence
We can
apply this perspective to the mind, using the “I” consciousness to see space as
an object. In the mind, we can see that there are the thoughts and emotions –
the mental conditions – that arise and cease. Usually we are dazzled, repelled,
or bound by these thoughts and emotions. We go from one thing to another
reacting, controlling, manipulating, or trying to get rid of them. So we never
have any perspective in our lives. We become obsessed with either repression or
indulgence of these mental conditions; we are caught in those two extremes.
With
meditation, we
have the opportunity to contemplate the mind. The silence of the mind is like
the space in the room. It is always there, but it is subtle – it doesn’t stand
out. It has no extreme quality that would stimulate and grasp our attention, so
we have to be attentive in order to notice it. One way to focus attention on
the silence of the mind is to notice the sound of silence.
One can use
the sound of silence (the primordial sound, the sound of the mind, or whatever
you want to call it) very skillfully, by bringing it up and paying attention to
it. It has a high pitch that is quite difficult to describe. Even if you plug
your ears, put your fingers against your ears, or are under water, you can hear
it. It is a background sound that is not dependant upon the ears. We know it is
independent because we hear this high pitched, vibrating sound even when the
ears are blocked.
By
concentrating your attention on the sound of silence for a while, you really
begin to know it. You develop a mode of knowing in which you can reflect. It’s
not a concentrated state you absorb into; it’s not a suppressive kind of
concentrating. The mind is concentrated in a state of balance and openness,
rather than absorbed into an object. One can use that balanced and open
concentration as a way of seeing things in perspective, a way of letting things
go.
Now I
really want you to investigate this mode of knowing, so that you begin to see
how to let go of things, rather that just having the idea that you should let
go of things. You might come away from the Buddhist teachings with the idea
that you should let go of things. Then, when you find that you can’t do it very
easily, you might think, “Oh no, I can’t let go of things!” This type of
judgment is another ego problem that you can create: “Only others can let go,
but I can’t let go. I should let go, because Venerable Sumedho
said everybody should let go.” That judgment manifestation of “I am,” isn’t it?
And it is just a thought – a mental condition that exists temporarily within
the spaciousness of the mind.
Space Around Thoughts
Take that
simple sentence, “I am,” and begin to notice, contemplate, and reflect on the
space around those two words. Rather than looking for something else, sustain
attention on the space around the words. Look at thinking itself, really
examining and investigating it. Now you can’t watch yourself habitually
thinking, because as soon as you notice that you’re thinking, the thinking stops.
You might be going along worrying, “I wonder if this will happen. What if that
happens … mumble, mumble. Oh, I’m thinking,” and it stops.
To examine
the thinking process, deliberately think something: take just one ordinary
thought like “I am a human being,” and just look at it. If you look at the
beginning of it, you can see that just before you say, “I,” there is a kind of
empty space. Then, if you think in your mind, “I – am – a – human – being,” you
will see space between the words. We are not looking at thought to see whether
we have intelligent thoughts or stupid ones. Instead, we are deliberately
thinking in order to notice the space around each thought. This way, we begin
to have a perspective on the impermanent nature of thinking.
This is just
a way of investigating, so that we can notice the emptiness when there is no
thought in the mind. Try to focus on that space; see if you can concentrate on
that space before and after a thought. For how long can you do it? Think, “I am
a human being,” and just before you start thinking it, stay in that space just before you say it. Now that’s mindfulness isn’t
it? Your mind is empty but there is also an intention to think a particular
thought. Then think it; and at the end of the thought, try to stay in the space
at the end. Does your mind stay empty?
Most of our
suffering comes from habitual thinking. If we try to stop it out of aversion to
thinking, we can’t; we just go on and on and on. So the important thing is not
to get rid of thought, but to understand it. And we do this by concentrating on
the space in the mind, rather than on the thoughts.
Our minds
tend to get caught up with thoughts of attraction or aversion to objects, but
the space around those thoughts is not attractive or repulsive. The space
around an attractive thought and the space around a repulsive thought is not different, is it? Concentrating on the space between
thoughts, we become less caught up in our preferences concerning the thoughts.
So if you find that an obsessive thought of guilt, self-pity, or passion keeps
coming up, then work with it in this way – deliberately think it, really bring
it up as a conscious state, and notice the space around it.
It’s like
looking at the space in a room: you don’t go looking for the space, do you? You
are simply open to it, because it is here all the time. It is not anything you
are going to find in the cupboard or in the next room. Or under the floor – it
is right here now. So you open to its presence; you begin to notice that it is
here.
If you are
still concentrated on the curtains or the windows or the people, you don’t
notice the space. But you don’t have to get rid of all those things to notice
the space. Instead, you just open to the space; you notice it. Rather than
focusing your attention on one thing, you are opening the mind completely. You
are not choosing a conditioned object, but rather you are aware of the space in
which the conditioned objects exist.
The Position of Buddha-Knowing
With the
mind, you can apply inwardly the same open attention. When your eyes are
closed, you can listen to the inner voices that go on in the mind. They say,” I
am this… I should not be like that.” You can use those voices for taking you to
the space between thoughts.
Rather than
making a big problem about the obsessions and fears that go on in the mind, you
can open your attention an see those obsessions and
fears as mental conditions that come and go in space. This way, even an evil
thought can take you
to emptiness.
This way of
knowing is very skillful, because it ends the mental battle in which you were
trying to get rid of evil thoughts. You can give the devil his due. You now
know that the devil is an impermanent thing. It arises and ceases in the mind,
so you don’t have to make anything out of it. Devil or angels – they are all
the same. Before, you’d have an evil thought and start creating a problem: “The
devil’s after me. I’ve got to get rid of the devil!” Now,
whether it’s getting rid of the devil, or grabbing hold of the angels, it is
all dukkha. If you take up this cool position
of Buddha-knowing – knowing the way things are – then everything becomes Dhamma. Everything becomes truth of the way it is. You see
that all mental conditions arise and cease – the good along with the bad, the
skilful along with the unskillful.
This is
what we mean by reflection – beginning to notice the way it is. Rather than
assuming that it should be any way at all, you are simply noticing. My purpose
is not to tell you how it is, but to encourage you to notice for yourself.
Don’t go around saying, ”Venerable Sumedho
told us the way it is.” I am not trying to present a way for you to consider, a
way of reflecting on your own experience, a way of knowing your own mind.
Question: Some people talk about Jhanas, sates of absorption, in Buddhist meditation. What
are they, and how do they fit in with mindfulness, insight and reflection?
Answer: The Jhanas
help you develop the mind. Each Jhana is a refinement
of consciousness and, as a group, they teach you to concentrate your attention
on increasingly refined objects. Through mindfulness and reflection, not
willfulness, you become very aware of the quality and the result of what you’re
doing. When you practice one Jhana after the other,
you develop the ability to sustain attention on objects that are more and more
refined. You develop great skill in this practice and you experience the bliss
that comes from absorbing into increasing refinements of consciousness.
The Buddha
recommended Jhana practice as a skillful means, but
not as an end in itself. If you let it become an end in itself, you become attached to
refinement and you suffer, because so much of our human existence is not
refined but quite course.
In contrast
to Jhana practice, the vipassana
meditations (insight meditations) focus on the way things are, the impermanence
of conditions, and the suffering that comes from attachments. Vipassana meditations teach us that the way about of
suffering is not through refinements in consciousness, but through non-grasping
of anything at all – not even the desire for absorption in any level of
consciousness.
Question: So insight is reflecting on the
grasping mind?
Answer: Yes, insight always notices the
result of grasping and develops Right Understanding. For example, contemplation
on the Four Noble Truths allows us to have Right Understanding, so that
self-view and self-conceit are penetrated with wisdom. When there is Right
Understanding, we are not practicing Jhanas from
selfish intention; they represent a skillful way to cultivate the mind, rather
than an attempt at personal attainment. People get it wrong when they approach
meditation with the idea of attainment and achievement. That always comes from
basic problem of ignorance and self-view, combined with desire and clinging.
And it always creates suffering.